Remind Me Again, Why Did I Sign Up For This?

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At the end of yet another scary dream (this time of voodoo hands & zombies), I find myself rudely awaken a 2nd time in the middle of the night to use the toilet >_<

After which I toss and turn in my bed as a thousand thoughts flew through my mind while I tried my hardest to go back to sleep..

"Omg! It has started already?! I'm only 14 weeks along.."
"How do boobs double in size in just 2 months?! I need more D cup bra.."

"What am I going to wear tomorrow? I've maxed out all my loose clothing!!"*deep sigh*

"Oh no I've got so many pending blog posts!! I haven't even finished my Bali posts!!" *deeper sigh*

And the worse part is that since I've been through this once, I sort of know that it's only going to get worse from here on. More trips to the toilet, more backaches, more cramps..

I know, I know, I shouldn't be complaining since I've been given the greatest gift of all.. a gift many people really, really want and try so hard to get but find it so hard.

I should be thankful and believe me, I am.

But since Pregnancy has never been kind to me, it's sooo hard to stay positive especially when it's so easy to sink into one of those "woe is me" modes. When you're stuck in a body that you no longer recognise anymore for 9 months, to be honest, it is like a hellish nightmare that doesn't seem to end. People says it gets worse when the baby is out and yes it does. But at least it doesn't last for NINE months!!

I'm counting down to the weeks (26 to be exact, I'm not even halfway there!!) where I can see and smell the fruits of my labour.

Why did I sign up for this?
This is why.

Girlee in the delivery suite 10 minutes after leaving my you-know-where =)